I wrote this hours
and hours ago, after the forums collapsed. I'm posting it here now.
To those familiar with Something Awful:
The SA Forums have utterly, utterly collapsed.
It was my
only source of news. I'm on a 56k connection, I couldn't muscle
myway onto CNN.com or BBC.co.uk. A NYC Forum Goon with a webcam
wasbroadcasting images of the burning World Trade Center. The thread
reached over 15 pages in under half an hour before it came crashing
down on the rest of SA.
I went in to work today, and came
home fifteen minutes later. The Loop area, the center of Chicago,
has shut down. The colleges, museums, stock exchange, government
buildings and businesses are closed. Games have been cancelled.
Public transit passes are free. The trains are packed.
Everyone is going home. I came home half an hour ago.
I'm a soft touch. I kept it together long enough to make it
to the CTA station, but I cried on the platform. I blame some
fuchsia-haired kid freaking out into his cell phone. "IT'S WAR FOR
SURE! IT'S WAR FOR SURE!" Couldn't maintain composure, sitting next
to that. When I started up, everyone thought I was a 17-year-old
late for school (I look young for my age) or I knew someone in New
York. A sympathetic lady gave me Kleenex. And then, out of nowhere,
a stranger appeared, snapped my photograph with an expensive-looking
camera, and disappeared again.
If a photo of a blonde,
pregnant woman in a blue cotton shirt handing a small, brown girl in
an olive-drab jacket a tissue shows up on the wire services on in
the papers, let me know.
New York doesn't look like New
York anymore. The skyline is gone. The WTC is dead. This is like the
plot to a movie I would refuse to see, on account of a ridiculous
premise. This our Pearl Harbor. Our generation has been defined by
this, and onyl then. In a hundred years, this is all they will
remember of us.
The Legendary Assholes of the Internet, from
Kyanka to Stile to Chez Noir of PoE, have suddenly decided that now
is not the time to be an asshole. They're asking for blood
donations. They're pulling their pages offline as a sign of respect.
It's surreal. These are good, decent people who can feel sympathy
for the pain fo others; I've always subconciously known that. But
the sudden breaks in character are as disarming as they are
Soylent from Rotten.Com has posted a series called
"Swan Dive." These are people jumping from the burning World Trade
Center, floor 60 and above. I have seen Stile's kitten video. I have
seen videos of castrations. I have seen "Train Girl." And these
three blurry, still photographs are the most horrible things I've
ever witnessed. Soylent also claims that the forth airliner, which
crashed in rural Pennsylvania, was shot down by a military jet.
That, so far, is unconfirmed by the BBC.
That's it. I don't
know what else to say. I'm sorry this happened. I'm sorry for
everything. No one deserves this. And no one deserves what's to